Yet another specialist...

Alright so we have been patients of Dr. Jerry's a while now and he has made some improvements with Josh.  However, it has not been that big of improvement.  As per Doctor Jerry's advice we are now going to go to the Amen clinic in New port Beach.  They will do Spec scans and determine what would work best for Josh on a medical scale as well as supplements and nutrition.  I am pretty optimistic about going but cautiously.  He has been getting a little worse lately and I am not sure how much more Dr. Jerry can do for him.  His violent outbursts and erratic behavior has been a little out of control as of late.  Last week he kicked a hole in my wall.  This week it has just been lots of screaming.  I think last week it was getting back on track after the holidays and back to school.  It also could be the wind was blowing or it was Wednesday.   Some days it is hard not to lose patience and hope.  The only thing I get really angry with is when you tell people what you are going through and they say, " you have jewels stored in heaven or well did you know he was like this when you adopted him".  I know they say those things for lack of something else to say, what do you say to a mom like me that has a child like Josh?   I just wish they would stop and think before spewing out such things.  No one ever said to a mom that her biological child was storing her up jewels in heaven.  Do they ever ask her if she knew he was like this before she decided to get pregnant with him. I think not!!  Josh is not a broken piece of furniture or a puppy.  He is a broken little boy with brain damage.  I did not break him but he was placed in my loving arms to try and find a direction for his life.  He has purpose and Merritt.  This behavior does not define him.  It is not his fault nor mine.  Please when you see people out in public that have a special child do not judge them for they are doing the best they can with what God has given them.  Sometimes love just is not enough.  Now that I am done with my rant, it is off to another specialist.  I will update you as soon as I can.  Sometimes life gets away from me and I don't get to update this as much as I would like to.